I am so nervous and mad and scared and nausious. I am mad at myself but so many feelings, I want to cut already again. They are making me go to court with my husband to finalize the divorce. There was abuse involved. I don't want to go, and Ia have to because of a technicality. :dry: hmy: :blub: I want to just cut deep, I've been trying not to but I need to be punished. I'm a bad person, I left my husband. I know he hurt me and it was impossible for me to live there, I still... I feel it's my fault. I ruin everything. I am such a evil person.