Apparantly this is all in my head but i aint so sure anymore. Everytime im on msn and skype people log off. Once fair enough, maybe coincidence but almost 3 days in a row its happened now and not just lately. I dont know, i mean i dont mind if people dont want to talk to me but to log off when i come online is just making me think theres a problem with me and its depressing the hell out of me. I might go to my psychiatrist later as i have been having really really bad urges to cut again and im resisting but i dont know how long i can do that for at the minute. Im just in a world of pain at the minute and everything i do seems to turn to shit.