Feeling crap. Don't know if it because I am coming out of what happened at the weekend and everything is reminding me of it. I don't really know what to do. I can't concentrate to do work and I have a meeting tomorrow with my practice educator and I need to get quite a bit done in time for that. I know I wont call Crisis team. I don't really know what else to do. Last night I went for a drive but I don't feel safe enough to go out at the moment. I feel reckless. I feel like I am holding my breath.