You know that when your afraid of heights, you just avoid them as far as possible. Im afraid of heoghts, yet i found my mind wandering on the very top floor of a mutli-storey car park. And im looking at it, form a few feet back i guess, and it just makes me dizzy. All it takes is seconds and my mind is ahead of me by a few moments. What is pushing me? Is it because i am angry and hurt? Is it because im tired of all of it? Or do i really believe the world is a better place without me? I dont actually know. I have seen it and walked through it in my mind. And with my head being there - where is the rest of me?