Tomorrow is my daughters 24th bday; this can't be happening!!! As such, I refuse to give into the insanely strong desire (otherwise I would), but am extreeeeemly tempted to just give up atm. I've been abnormally tired today for reasons I don't understand which wasn't helpful while at a long meeting this morning. I was popping cinnamon altoids I could suck on just to keep awake, and they also distracted me from the headache and neck ache I was experiencing at the time. Two people I'm close to were noticing what I was doing although they had no idea why I was doing it. One leaned over to ask if I needed a drink cuz I was popping so many. It wasn't about thirst. I had a full mug to drink. I found it all quite embarrassing tbh. Once I got home I could still barely stay awake. I took my dog for a brief walk, and was forced to take a nap cuz my eyes were burning so bad. Slept for two hours, and it doesn't seem to have made any diff. I'm extremely discouraged and hopeless atm. I'm longing to just put myself out of my misery. Of course there's more to it than just being tired, but I'm sure it's certainly not helping matters, either. And just for the record - I got enough sleep last night.