I want to be dead, but don't want to be dead cos it hurts those who love me. I want to fade, but don't want to fade cos it hurts those who love me. I want to but I dont want to. they say a cat always lands on her feet. and if you put butter on a bread, it always falls butter down. so if you rub a cat's back in with butter, and throw it, how will it land? -------- I love people, I feel so much love for people. but I hate them for loving me. :unsure: I love them so much that I hate them. cos ... they aren't allowed to love me. they mustn't, they can't. it's not right.