You know that feeling when you haven't slept for so long that you heart beats so fast. When you're so scared. When you can hardly breathe through your nose, but can only breathe in a shallow way through your mouth. When you want to throw up. When you can't sit still otherwise fear will overcome you. When you feel like you're free falling into a bottomless pit. When you want to bang your head into the wall. When you want to cry but can't because you're so angry. This stress is crippling me from head to toes. I feel the need to chain smoking 100 pack of smoke at once. One cigarette inserted inside each of my orifices. Oh ffs i have enough!