Once again I fucked it all up. Misunderstood and miscommunicated today. Abused and used yesterday. Trying so hard to help others fight and myself. All for the grand melt down today. So I cut and kept cutting. Now my hands cant stop shaking, I'm so cold and the feeling like the best sleep of my life is falling upon me. For a little bit I tried, I bandaged it up. But didnt help. Ah fuck it, I'm going to bed.