If you are a theist do not reply to this, I do not want to hear your bullshit. I know what life is about, I know what friends are, I know what relationships are, I know what its like to have money, I know what hobbys are like.. so dont tell me I should get hobbies. I am a college student right now. I have a psychiatrist, I am taking Paxil for anxietys and panic attacks. I used to be scared of killing myself. I started thinking, and theres nothing to be afraid of, I will in the end be worry free, no stress, NOTHING. I will be nothing at all. All I have to do is drive to mexico and put a pistol in my mouth and pull the trigger. I will be found by Jose and be buried as John Doe. My family wont be emberissed, I will write a letter to my parents and tell them. I know what life is about, and its not for me.