Cruise Control For Pain

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by MonkeyCadet, Jan 2, 2013.

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  1. MonkeyCadet

    MonkeyCadet Member

    Slipping... It's like I'm falling into a subconscious state where these thoughts are taking over my mind like wildfire... I woke up at 5 this morning ,edit mod total eclipse triggering>... I don't even remember bringing it into my bed with me or if I cut last night... I woke up feeling as shitty as can be and wished I could fall back asleep and never wake up again... Made some food just to throw it out cuz I want myself to suffer and starve... Almost reached for the bottle last night but didn't wanna go to the hospital and deal with all those f***ing idiots again... I don't know what to do... I feel like the real me is wandering in my head to gain control back and until then I'm on a cruise control for pain... Cuz that's all I've been doing to myself lately... Just wanna say goodbye and let go >.<
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  2. J3nny

    J3nny Well-Known Member

    u should stay, i myself have simliar problems of wanting to sleep forever and escape all the pain i feel......................suicide attempts always end up in a psych ward where ur locked in with other ppl, they have u under tight control , it sucks...ive been there....................
  3. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I know the hospital can be upsetting hun but it also can be a place to get support ok that you need so please hun go and talk to someone Just tell them you need some help as you are not well hun hugs
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