I'm 23, diagnosed with avoidant personality disorder and more or less chronic depression. I was minor depressed when I was with my GF, but now she left and I absolutely see no hope in life. I give her 1 year to come back and if not, thats it. I can't take solitude at all, it's causing the most extreme pain I know, and now I can't trust other women anymore, which obviously ends in solitude. I'm not here to find help, because there is no. Just trying to see if others feel the same and how they stay alive for a certain amount of time. Because I don't know how to survive that goal of 1 year, crying on the floor almost whole day, everyday. Tears don't stop in school, bus or at supermarket (ppl propably think im a super freak now, but w/e). Even while doing sports, being with friends or visiting a festival. That's why I say nothing helps. Greetings from Germany.