I've been away from this forum for a while... I was without the computer for a few months, and I was getting better...I really was happy for past few months. Maybe an absence form computer helped. I hope that someone will still reply. Because I feel so alone right now. I've been feeling like shit for the last two weeks (before, I was happy, normal and depression free)... and the last few days were like hell. I just can't stop crying. I cry myself to sleep, I wake up crying. I'm just so sad and I cry right now.... I just want someone to love. I miss my ex, who was also my bestfriend... we don't even talk anymore.It's been months and I'm still not over him. Why can't I just let it go... I have a feeling that I will never heal. And that my life is destroyed now. I hate to see his happy facebook status updates. I burst into tears only if I think about him. And besides that... I'm just really sad... and I don't even know why... I just am. My life looks like a dead end road. I don't know who I am or where I'm going. I'm so scared that I will end up really depressed and kill myself. Usually exercise and helathy eating helped me. I've been doing it all. And I tried to distract myself... but it doesn't help. All I do is cry . I hope that this doesn't mean that my depression is back... I hope that this it's just pms, lol. I don't know how I will go to school tomorow. Im scared that I might cry in school... I would go to the bathroom, but still. Not a nice experience. I don't know what to do. I don't want to be all depressed again. Help me stop this, please. I want to be whole again . But it just hurts so much . I need someone who understands to tell me that I will be alright and that my I will get over my ex... and that my life is not all black. I don't have any support right now. To hell with everything... And I'm sorry if I disturbed anyone here, because I'm such a wreck, crying over nothing. Sorry.