Well, at present i'm on a tweaked out sleep schedule. I tried to fix it with Zolpidem, Xanax, Delysum. I built a massive tolerance to everything now. Up till recently, it was just to sleep. Lately though, i'm starting to get on a Xanax kick. Which ties to my second problem. I have an intense yearning to try a psychoative drug. I mean mushrooms, possibly LSD, or especially DMT. I have the desire to go on the 'spirit journey' for religious reasons. Yet, i have no access, and i know i'm prone to panic attacks. Since those are near impossible to obtain, i am starting to use pills for some kind of satisfaction. I'm sure i'll screw up on my combo sooner or later. But, for years i've craved to 'trip' on something stronger than weed (no longer use) for now i just forsee more dangerous sedative mixtures. At least i have some level of knowledge about not using the wrong things.