I have more curiosity about death than life despite the fact that I am only 21. I'm pretty sure my life will be mostly suffering; loneliness, depression, anxiety, self-hatred, disgust, anger, disillusionment. But death can be one of two things: nothingness which would be best or finding out why in the hell I was thrown into a world in which I would suffer and die. It is very tempting and alluring, death, whereas life is very painful and hopeless. Curiosity kills cats supposedly, why not humans too? But really I know there is nothing to find out. Oblivion is what I crave most of all.