I keep having dreams involving my scars. They always start unraveling, like I'm made of thread or yarn, and they just come apart, blood starts melting out of my arms and my vision just turns red. I can't see anything and then there's a moment of complete clarity where I can see everything, the blood around me, the tatters that my arms have turned into, before I wake up. I have another one where I show someone, usually a stranger, my scars and they rub on them, never very hard, just lightly touching them, and the paths that their fingers make make new cuts, like they have tiny needles on the end of their hands. I don't know what it means but even looking at my scars now is making my head spin and my vision weird.