I posted just now on relationships forum but wanted to post here. For one its stopping me from cutting for the moment. This sucks. I haven't cut this much since middle school. I had a relapse last year and cut too deep needed stiches. Normally its just more superficial cuts. The worst was he relapse was due to my g/f emotionally cheating on me. And now we still live together she broke up with me and started a reltionship with the same guy. I can't deal. Can't leave and niether can she we are literally broke. I can't stop cutting. I just came from in patient and now am in out patient. TO crazy to work am on temporary disability. I can't avoid her and don't want too. I keep cutting. Im so afraid ill go for my arteries. Because they are so close to the surface of my skin they actually pop up and u ca see my pulse beat. ITs so tempting. I just want to hurt and numb and not think about this. I can't stand it.