i just spent ages looking at this website full of photographs that people have posted of their own cuts. first off. i never used to get triggared by images/words etc but i have such a craving for cutting lately. ive been trying so hard not to cut deep and have only done a few little cuts. but yeh. dont know what drew me to these sites, but i couldnt stop myself. it makes me feel weird inside. like excited [not in a sexual way] i also find myself competing with these images. like saying ''oh i can cut deeper than that!'' this has never been in my mind before. i always thought the fact that the person cut in the first place showed they were troubled, not how deep the cut is. wtf has happened to me. my cutting has come so far...too far. i want to cut deep. yet at the same time i dont. the only thing stopping me is that i ended up in a&e and hated it. them hospital staff are useless with self harm patients!! i wish they didnt have them sites on the internet. or maybe i wish i had the will power not to look, or to control my mind. whats your view on these sites?