In class today a woman asked the professor if people self injure and cut because of the feeling of the endorphins (it's a psychopharmacology class) My mind was racing, my heart pounding idk why I freaked out. I wanted to run out the room. When I walked in the room I felt self conscious like someone was going to see my cuts or know I was a cutter, i was even thinking about going to the bathroom to cut when she mentioned it. i am paranoid and feel sooooo low today. I guess when she mentioned it I panicked. Ugh it's so stupid to panic. But the professor didn't know and said she thought it was not because of the endorphins but because of psychological issues and that "those" people wanted to feel. But the way she said it was like a judgement like it was stupid! Some other species. It hurt a little and made me feel like a freak. I wanted to tell the girl that sometimes it is the endorphins, like a high that makes some forget about everything. I didn't say anything though. I kind of regret not saying anything because cutting is so misunderstood. Were not freaks right? Idk what else to say. Just an event today I thought I'd share.