Hey there. I'd like to be called Cyanide on this site. I'm trying to keep it under wraps in case my family or friends look up my other emails/names. I'm 24 and I'm not sure what I am... doctors have given me diagnoses of so many different things...Borderline, Schizophrenic, GAD, SAD, Severe Depression.... They all mean the same thing to me. I don't think the same way other people do, and I'm hoping to find some friends here that I can be totally open with. People I can talk to without having to stop and think about every response, worrying that I'm going to offend someone or they'll just label me crazy, laugh and move on. I've been suicidal for about ten years and for a while I thought it was getting better, lately it's just been getting worse. There's no real reason... I don't know I thought talking to other people who have had these feelings might help me figure it out. So I look forward to meeting some new people and hopefully I can get and give some support here.