I came into the crisis forum as tomorrow is d-day. i have been taken asprin to thin my blood ( I have problems with my blood clotting anyhow and not allowed to take asprin). I have it all planned, my flat mate is going away tomorrow nite she won't be home until Monday I don't get phone calls, I'm meant to see my counsellor on friday but she won't notice i'm missing. I have my blades and various tablets, I'm calm, I'm not scared, so why am I posting ~ do I want to die or just end this life i'm leading, these feelings, memories, voices in my head. I don't know I just can't see a future.