In the OP's case, it's a matter of finding the right meds, as he/she stated. Whereas in my case, it was instead a matter of finding the right therapist. I had to try three of them before I finally found one with whom I had a rapport. I've had this therapist for many years, and he's very good, because he always knows the right things to say to me, which gives me the strength to keep enduring. I've noticed several posters on this forum who don't like their therapists at all, and it's that frustration which obviously keeps hurting them. That's why I strongly suggest that they try multiple different ones until they find one with whom they feel a rapport.