I guess people around don't get it that I have suicidal thoughts everyday. They have tried to explain to me about those thoughts as results of lacking friends, eating less vegetables and fruits, weak faith in God, spending too much time working on computers, being born strange, or even vaccines.
For now, I keep a mask on for them: being as functional as possible in daily work, at the same time, trying to avoid them as much as I can and gathering resources for getting help professionally and effectively. For the mean time, those thoughts are still around when I'm typing these lines.
I need to get back to work somehow. Spending too much time on this forum is pretty much procrastination.
For now, I keep a mask on for them: being as functional as possible in daily work, at the same time, trying to avoid them as much as I can and gathering resources for getting help professionally and effectively. For the mean time, those thoughts are still around when I'm typing these lines.
I need to get back to work somehow. Spending too much time on this forum is pretty much procrastination.