I haven't been on this forum for over a year now. During that time my life actually seemed to be improving, I have been making progress at work, with friends and I have even been reconciling with family. Depression has come and gone, lasting only a few days' at a time so all in all it's been one of the more pleasant 12 months of my life. Then a couple of weeks ago BANG! I haven't felt this low in a long long time, there was no trigger no warning it just came completely out of the blue, I now struggle just to roll out of bed each morning, I've been off work and a complete arse hole to friends, the suicidal thoughts are back stronger than ever. I just don't see the point of even trying during better times when at the drop of a hat my life can become pointless and such a chore at any time, taking away all that I've achieved and improved:dispirited:.