I cant stand the highs and lows or mixed states of bipolor. its wrecking havoc on me, taking a toll. i will always come back to mania or suicidal depressed. what am i here for im, not succeeding in anything. my head is spinning, im depressed and my thoughts are racing. i have no one to talk to. i guess i do but i feel like im throwing my problems to the wind cause there is nothing they can do for me or say to make it go away or feel better. i cant talk it out and feel better, it dosnt work that way. the thoughts still play over and over in my head. im so freaking frustrated, and worn thin.