so a friend of mine told me last night that i was damaged goods and no one in their right mind would ever want to be with me...this was a guy that for the first time in three years i actually felt close enough to that i was able to let down my guard a little bit and allow myself to fall for him, we've been friends for two years...and i finally told him that i was raped at a party three years ago...he is now one of three people that know, and he said all the right things, that it wasn't my fault, that he didn't think anything different of me...but then yesterday the came at me with "he couldn't be with me becasue he couldn't deal with the baggage i brought along, that i was damaged goods and he couldn't be with me" but we could "still be friends" is he fucking serious?!?! i just don't know what to do. i've been in such a good place...well good as i can be...the last couple of weeks and this had just completely thrown me for a loop. i feel like i deserve what is happening to me now, that i deserve to be shuned, to be alone...i don't know. and i haven't been to sleep in two days, because now that this whole thing has been brought up by this guy saying these things, i have the worst flashbacks every time i try to fall asleep. flashbacks so real that i feel like i am there. i don't know how to break free of this, i'm afraid to go to sleep. i don't know what to do.