I will be alone tommorow. And i dont feel safe. I cant think anymore. I cant.
I can do something that makes me feel better... but as soon as i come back, i fall. Nothing helps anymore. I'm sad cuz i might do something to myself... i dont want to but again, i feel like i have to. I feel bad for keeping talking about wanting to end my life and not doing it. I dont see any way out anymore. It fucking hurts... and i can cry or laugh as much as i want. I can write, i can distract, i can fight... it just wont go away... im so sorry. Im so sorry for everything i have done. I probably deserve this.
I checked my safety plan, i am aware of everything. That thi gs might change and there is more to life... but i dont know what to do. I cant take this pain anymore. No one has ever understood in real life. This place is great and all... but its just not human.
I get that you are human, but what i see is my phone... and some letters, black on white.
I cant get up anymore.
I can do something that makes me feel better... but as soon as i come back, i fall. Nothing helps anymore. I'm sad cuz i might do something to myself... i dont want to but again, i feel like i have to. I feel bad for keeping talking about wanting to end my life and not doing it. I dont see any way out anymore. It fucking hurts... and i can cry or laugh as much as i want. I can write, i can distract, i can fight... it just wont go away... im so sorry. Im so sorry for everything i have done. I probably deserve this.
I checked my safety plan, i am aware of everything. That thi gs might change and there is more to life... but i dont know what to do. I cant take this pain anymore. No one has ever understood in real life. This place is great and all... but its just not human.
I get that you are human, but what i see is my phone... and some letters, black on white.
I cant get up anymore.