Hi guys and gals I am a new member here. I felt that I needed to reach out to somewhere cause I don't really feel comfortable really talking about my depression and suicidal feelings to just anyone. I just can't stand feeling like this anymore! Its really ruining me inside. I don't enjoy anything anymore unless I am drunk. I feel nothing anymore! I didn't even cry at my aunts funeral. I was never abused sexually or physically, so I know I brought this on myself! I just want to stop feeling like this! I don't know how I have lasted this long. But I know once my parents are gone there will be no more excuses for me to remain here.