So when everything came crashing down on me, and I found my way here, the only thing I could focus on was either living or dying. I couldnt hold my head up, I couldnt smile, I could barely eat. And....one of the online places that I was a moderator at, a place where I had friends for years, a place where some of the nicest people in the world hang out, (except for you guys) was my online home. I tried going there, but they didnt get it. they didnt understand my sucidal thoughts, or my depression. They tried tough love on me, and that pushed me away. I decided today to post a hello, how's everyone been thing, in their Monday forum. I did this about a month ago, and got a friendly response. I didnt get a response today. I even went as far to say good morning to the Admin ( a person whom I thought was a good friend). he ignored me. And....some time during this past month, he deleted my signature pic. So...while not being banned, I no longer seem to be welcomed there. I couldnt concentrate on the stuff they were discussing. I mean, I was in a life and death struggle and those guys were talking about music. And now this. I am very sad about this.