Monday I'm seeing psych again on Monday But shit I should have stayed on my meds. Because i I go to him and tell him about how suicidal I've been recently, and how low I've got and the thoughts I've been having, it won't be a true picture because I know that, actually, on my meds, I've been much better than this - they helped, a lot. And its my own stupid fault for running out and not getting another script.... But if I see him and I don't tell him how suicidal I've been lately - then I'm not being honest about where I am right now. Damnit.