The girl i've been dating is really different. At first it didn't bother me, as i wanted to help her (she has bulimia, anorexia, depression, panic attacks etc.) but now i'm getting scarred.
After 2 dates, i told her i just want to be friends. She pretty much lost control and went home without saying anything. Later, she told me we could be friends. She really opened up and told me about how she has been in more than 30 relationship (she is 21 years old), and she never loved any of guys, she just enjoyed breaking their hearts and having control over them. I decided to help her, so we went on a drink. And then again. But this time we started kissing, we even had sexual intercourse. She told me i'm the first person that has ever understand her and that i'm the first boy she actually cares for.
I have no idea what to think of it... she seems so honest, yet chances that she is telling the truth are so low... on the other side, i'm scarred of possible relationship. She seems like a perfect soulmate, we are almost 100% compatible. I'm afraid she is just playing and once i fell in love with her, she will try to control me and break my heart like she did to all those other guys. The other thing is, that i'm afraid of how she will accept, if i decide i dont want to have anything with her, especially because she is control freak (not only she does have anorexia, which is to my knowledge about control, she also used boys to control them). I'm scared she might now want to let me go and cause me problems in life like stalking (then again, i'm very anxious, so this might be just the symptom of my disorder). She invinted me to her house tomorrow night (friday) and i dont know what to do... If we'll have sex again, she might get even more attached and... well i just don't know. I'd like to be in relationship with her, but i just don'T know what to expect, as things are so confusing.
I'm writing this as i have little expiriences with girls, so i'm automatically a bit naive.
After 2 dates, i told her i just want to be friends. She pretty much lost control and went home without saying anything. Later, she told me we could be friends. She really opened up and told me about how she has been in more than 30 relationship (she is 21 years old), and she never loved any of guys, she just enjoyed breaking their hearts and having control over them. I decided to help her, so we went on a drink. And then again. But this time we started kissing, we even had sexual intercourse. She told me i'm the first person that has ever understand her and that i'm the first boy she actually cares for.
I have no idea what to think of it... she seems so honest, yet chances that she is telling the truth are so low... on the other side, i'm scarred of possible relationship. She seems like a perfect soulmate, we are almost 100% compatible. I'm afraid she is just playing and once i fell in love with her, she will try to control me and break my heart like she did to all those other guys. The other thing is, that i'm afraid of how she will accept, if i decide i dont want to have anything with her, especially because she is control freak (not only she does have anorexia, which is to my knowledge about control, she also used boys to control them). I'm scared she might now want to let me go and cause me problems in life like stalking (then again, i'm very anxious, so this might be just the symptom of my disorder). She invinted me to her house tomorrow night (friday) and i dont know what to do... If we'll have sex again, she might get even more attached and... well i just don't know. I'd like to be in relationship with her, but i just don'T know what to expect, as things are so confusing.
I'm writing this as i have little expiriences with girls, so i'm automatically a bit naive.
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