Dark places

[The Breeze]

I’m in a very dark place tonight... my thoughts have now manifested into physical traits... shaking ... clasping and unclamping.
I really feel like I am losing it. I have very few coping mechanisms and I fear something terrible is going to happen... I’m on no medications..
Have had suicidal thoughts and tendencies for years but never to this extent. Sorry all... don’t want to be a downer but I’m a grown man and I am terrified.

 

[sinking_ship]

What do you normally do to distract yourself when you are feeling bad?

 

[1964dodge]

try to relax if you can and distract yourself. if you don't feel safe please call a crises line or the emergency #...mike...

 

[The Breeze]

What do you normally do to distract yourself when you are feeling bad?

I have started journaling.. trying to get my thoughts down.. I have no one to talk with so I was hoping it might help

 

[Hopeiseverything]

I can relate. Perhaps take a shower, a cup of something warm like tea, I have done that when my thoughts are overwhelming....

 

[1964dodge]

journaling can be a good way to track progress forward or back. it also helps to get it out. but you do have people to talk to, you have people on SF that care and are listening to you. if you ever need to talk feel free to use my inbox...mike...

 

[The Breeze]

Thank you all... so overwhelming like a dark wave crashing down

 

[sinking_ship]

I have started journaling.. trying to get my thoughts down.. I have no one to talk with so I was hoping it might help

I find that helpful sometimes. Sometimes just getting the words out can make them a bit less powerful. You can keep talking to us here too.

 

[Dark111]

Thank you all... so overwhelming like a dark wave crashing down

Breeze, have you suffered episodes like this throughout your life or is this the first time it's gotten this bad?

 

[The Breeze]

Breeze, have you suffered episodes like this throughout your life or is this the first time it's gotten this bad?

I had mild episodes in the past... it’s getting worse and this time it’s overwhelming

 

[Daphna]

I’m in a very dark place tonight... my thoughts have now manifested into physical traits... shaking ... clasping and unclamping.
I really feel like I am losing it. I have very few coping mechanisms and I fear something terrible is going to happen... I’m on no medications..
Have had suicidal thoughts and tendencies for years but never to this extent. Sorry all... don’t want to be a downer but I’m a grown man and I am terrified.

Praying for you.

 

[Mymindsmine]

Hey breeze I get you more than you will ever know . However I have learnt recently that I’m sick and tired of people making me feel that way. I have come through training to work hard on how I allow others to make me feel shit and worthless . And come to the conclusion no more it’s tiring it’ causes me pain. And so I’m not going to allow it’s anymore. We all have a inate power to stop people places and things from making us feel shit . It’s about time we used it. How dare anyone or anything make you feel like this . Who the fuck gives them permission to make you feel this way. I don’t and I’m pretty sure anyone here don’t either .... stop allowing people places and things from getting In your head . Stop inviting them to your world . Xx your amazing and have a right to be here and live your life fuck anyone who stops that for you xxx

 

[Dark111]

I had mild episodes in the past... it’s getting worse and this time it’s overwhelming

Breeze, are there any particular triggers that bring these episodes about? Has something happened recently that was particularly upsetting?

 

[Dark111]

I'm not a clinician & I could be wrong but your symptoms sound like a panic attack. Do you find yourself hyperventilating also? If so maybe try focus on getting your breathing under control. Slow, even, steady breaths. It might feel like hell as you try to do that but this can help you feel a little more in control over what's happening to you. Standing in cold air can be helpful too as your attention is redirected to your body temperature. These are of course just suggestions but they may be helpful. Will you keep us updated on how you're doing?

 

[The Breeze]

Made it through the night.... seems to come in waves... will do fine for a while . Then .. wham.... going to look for a Dr. to check physical reason...
Thank you all.. still pretty scared

 

[sinking_ship]

Made it through the night.... seems to come in waves... will do fine for a while . Then .. wham.... going to look for a Dr. to check physical reason...
Thank you all.. still pretty scared

 

[Dark111]

Made it through the night.... seems to come in waves... will do fine for a while . Then .. wham.... going to look for a Dr. to check physical reason...
Thank you all.. still pretty scared

Glad to hear you're doing better, Breeze. Keep fighting the good fight.

 

[KM76710]

Made it through the night.... seems to come in waves... will do fine for a while . Then .. wham.... going to look for a Dr. to check physical reason...
Thank you all.. still pretty scared

Hopes for the best for you.

 

[The Breeze]

Thanks.. Day by day... hour by hour when necessary