Darkness in my heart

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by mike308, Sep 19, 2008.

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  1. mike308

    mike308 Well-Known Member

    I am just past the point of anything, but the darkness of my soul.
    I only wear black.The absence of light and color.
    Death comes soon..If there is a Lord God.. He will take pity on a poor soul like me and offer me peace.
  2. darkplace

    darkplace Well-Known Member

    I wear mostly black too. PM me if you want, tc x
  3. Pingu

    Pingu Well-Known Member

    hey i only wear black too :unsure:
  4. mike308

    mike308 Well-Known Member

    I don't know if black shows the color of blood.
    We are after all, just buckets of blood and other liquids.
    The media doesn't like to show the pools of blood that result from putting holes in the bag. It would make violence less acceptable and entertaining.
    Death is a messy business for the survivors..oh well,no worries for me.
    What do you want to talk about??
    Black as a symbol of the darkness of my heart? or as a religious statement.
    IE the Quakers...
    I am just at the end of the line.
  5. worlds edge

    worlds edge Well-Known Member

    Black isn't the absence of color, actually. It is the presence of all colors, I believe. White is what you want to wear to be absent all color.
  6. pit

    pit Well-Known Member

    Paint it black, man, paint it black.:wink:
  7. mike308

    mike308 Well-Known Member

    That's what I don't like about this forum, or any forum on the net..
    There is "always some smart ass"
    Just so you know.... when I put the rag on my head to muffle the shot..
    It will be "fucking white".
  8. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    Name calling solves nothing mike308. If black represents to you that feeling of darkness, can you change the way you feel by not allowing yourself to wear black? Just a thought.
  9. Dave_N

    Dave_N Guest

    It isn't your time to go yet mike. :hug:
  10. mike308

    mike308 Well-Known Member

    I suppose that would work..If I wanted it to.
    Right now I would rather wallow in my misery and self-pity/ absorption.
    Life just sucks right now.
    It's getting worse and worse all the time.
    My faith in God and Love of Jesus is the only reason I am still here.
    Look at the beautiful sky and mountains and all I see is black.
    Of course like many Americans.. I have no health insurance, so I can't even afford to see a doctor and get something to help me out of this simply "evil black hole".
    LIFE SUCKS and I have a hair trigger.
  11. Dave_N

    Dave_N Guest

    Hi mike. Continue having faith in God and Jesus. Don't give up hope that things can get better.
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