it's getting dark. i'm not sure what is all going on. i moved from california to texas and i was doing ok when i first got here and now i am starting to fade into the dark recesses of my head again. the voices are getting louder and more common. they're telling me that i shouldn't be here and i need to go. the thought's are getting worse. i live in a house with 3 other ppl and i am alone. i miss talking to my friends. all i want to do is sleep, yet i can't. usually, when i get this way, i know what is causing my depression. but, this time i don't. nothing interests me at all. fuck it.