Here i am back again, Back to the darkness. Where is the light? I feel so lost confused and alone Is there no escape from my eternal hell You smile and nod to all those around While black thoughts like poison burn inside The thoughts of darkness are back again A never ending hopelessness The option of death that can't be all that left A nagging thought that your leaving something behind Try to remember the smiles and laughs Eroded away by pain and time. How do you smile? The thoughts of death no longer leave They stand forever by your side Maybe it is for the best, who will care that you are gone Death promises you peace, from the infinite pain, tearing at your soul Just want to die to escape the never ending pain. Try to fight it, try to deny it those thoughts of darkness But the darkness has become the only companion. The darkness is always by my side. Sorry if it is not that good, its my first poem/ thing. It was just away to express everything piling up inside.