In a moment of clarity or insanity these thoughts came to be words and the need to share! We are all soldiers in this world fighting the battle of life and we have all been wounded at sometime or the other, some more than others, some of us carry the pain, the darkness and confusion of our wounds and our scars. Sometimes they bring us to our knees to the brink of the abyss where the pain the frustration the moment becomes to much, we all have our moments where we contemplate and crave a way in which we may find peace and comfort. In this darkest hour we lose all hope as the darkness blinds us pain consumes us and words forsake us! In a way those of us struggling to heal have been fortunate as our wounds have given and will give us the understanding, compassion, strength and humility needed to win the war and help others like us, to realize that there is something bigger than all of us what ever you may perceive it to be, something beyond this life beyond what we can comprehend. Why would we go trough so much pain, lose, torment, if not for us to grow to find our strength and to find an understanding deeper and more intense than most. Some of us have been overcome with pain and have found a way to leave this battlefield; it has left it wounds and scars on those of us left behind. Some scares are left early in your life and you don’t realize that they are there until you are much older the skin heals, but underneath it rotting eating away at your insides, the wounds need to be opened and cleaned so they can heal, there will always be a scar but once the wound has healed it will only be a stepping stone. We also have wounds we feel and see every day it feels as if the world keeps picking and poking at this wound it keeps bleeding no matter what we do. The thoughts suggest the answers lay in finding wisdom to forgive ourselves and those around us to take a step forward, to keep searching, to not give up even in the darkest moments and only then will life no longer be a source of pain but of hope strength and understanding in helping yourself and others in this world. My battles have been many not as many as some but they have left there scars and they have brought me to my knees to the edge of the abyss. The darkness still blinds me and I don’t know if I will gain the wisdom and strength I need to live my words!