I feel my self trying to keep ahead of it but it's faster than me it's starting to envelope me, smother me it's strangeling me I feel myself starting to give in to it. I'm doing more and more stupid stuff my bike isn't fast enough anymore it can't be it hasn't killed me yet. I feel myself thinking about doing it more and more maybe now I will find the courage. How much are you supposed to endure before enough is enough. Think i'm almost there.