thanx for the feedback on my plea for positivity. i appreciate the open honesty on this site. i have been trying to form a pair bond with a woman for 20 years; it seems to be one of the few social formations in our society for forming a community. my psychiatrist wrote a book about how forming a close relationship helps the limbic system of the brain to help us maintain a tolerable emotional state, and i think he is right. anyway, after a loooong time without that mutual fire that tells one they might fall in love. i have a third date tonight; and last night we made out for multiple hours. it felt great, but i am fixated on my bodily imperfections and my high maintainence teeth, and being around someone a lot after a long stretch of managing my mood by sitting around be myself smoking pot (it is medically approve, in addition to my bipolar meds. So I am uncomofrtable in this new situation; my ocd finds the flaws in the situation (she, unlike me, is not in to bdsm; we seem very different in many ways). i should be happy to be making out with a tall gorgeous red-headed earth goddess type, but i am just anxious!! help!!!