With all the crap I went thru this year, one would think I should be looking forward to the end of this miserable year. Oh there were some cool moments mixed, but for the most part this year sucked. But instead of looking forward to the arrival of January 2011, I find myself dreading it more and more. For in January, I will more than likely get fired from my job. I am on an "Action plan" at the moment. With an impossible goal to reach and only 4 weeks to achieve it. So....my time is almost through. One might say, that ending it all, because of a job loss makes no sense. But how about this; Loosing my job, means, I will have achieved everything my miserable life has led me to. I will finally be victorious in being a pathetic looser, who can't even support his family. Oh and I almost forgot about the bankrupcty. The monthly payments for the Chapter 13 are coming out of my paycheck. So when i get fired, that payment stops. And then guess what? They will come for my pathetic 134,000 no brakes, bald ass tire, bad struts, alignment whacked, electronically fucked up piece of shit car. Oh...but that's kust the beginning. My natural gas service will be shut off in December, so my family will freeze. I know my band friends will try to intervene when the time comes, but I aint telling a single soul about it this time. I have time to start planning a method. So that starts today. I won't even talk further about this on this board or any other. Eveything is settled.