Okay, here I am again trying to quit smoking, Im on day 3, got my prescription filled and started them today. The geeking (as I call it) is still here, I need to find things to occupy myself. Im going to do it this time, I can feel it. Ive smoked for almost 20 years this year and Im just tired of spending money on it, wasting my time on it, looking for it, its consumed so much of me that I want back. I want to not rush home to smoke, I never want to tell my kids, Ill be out in a minute, I want to spend the money I spend on bills and things we want, I never want to go to someones house that I dont know and buy drugs, I want to wake up in the morning with the first thought being what do I want to do than thinking I need to smoke, I dont want to pass up doing things with others because I need to smoke to function, I dont want to hide anymore, I dont want this addiction anymore holding itself over my head taunting me, Im stronger than it. I can do this, I have to do this for my own sanity and mental health. I want to be free!!!!