I deleted your posts because I have a problem with the language, and the way you write about crying for instance....I really want and would be glad to help you, I just do't know how to react to the language, and to be honest, I doubt(ed ) on your intends in here...we had our share of trolls lately.
People are mostly very sensible here also, as you can expect in a forum like this, so things said maybe with no bad intentions but just uncarefull formulated could hurt or trigger people, and my first thoughts go to protect our members.
I hope we can have a restart, and I hope you still can find the support you said you were looking for .
Take care
helena