I don't know what to do...
My life seems to be getting worse and worse. Everything is crashing down around me, and it feels like I can't even breathe. And now, aside from the emotional shit I'm going through, which is making me ridiculously suicidal already, everything else is screwing up. I am neck deep in financial issues, because for the past two years, my mental health has been spiralling again, and I've been a complete dickhead and not been able to keep on top of things. My memory is shocking, so I forget to do things as and when needed, which has resulted in things building up to the extent of being out of control. My flat is under threat of being repossessed, I'm being fined, I'm ridiculously overdrawn in my bank account. I'm pathetic, I can't even look after myself. I'm 22 and everything has gone wrong. I have no family, no friends, so I can't borrow money from anyone, and I seriously don't know what else to do. This is what tipped me over the edge last month when I was forced to go into hospital to stay safe. I really don't know what to do. Shit. And it is my own fault, because I should have been able to manage better.
Suicide seems to be the only way out.. seriously, even if I could get more psychiatric support, or felt worthy enough to get it, it wouldn't take the financial shit away. So seriously.. what are the other options? My life felt desperate and unbearable as it was... and now? With all this? I just... I don't know what to do. One thing after another, and I can't. I can't deal with it. I don't know how. I'm such a failure.
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My life seems to be getting worse and worse. Everything is crashing down around me, and it feels like I can't even breathe. And now, aside from the emotional shit I'm going through, which is making me ridiculously suicidal already, everything else is screwing up. I am neck deep in financial issues, because for the past two years, my mental health has been spiralling again, and I've been a complete dickhead and not been able to keep on top of things. My memory is shocking, so I forget to do things as and when needed, which has resulted in things building up to the extent of being out of control. My flat is under threat of being repossessed, I'm being fined, I'm ridiculously overdrawn in my bank account. I'm pathetic, I can't even look after myself. I'm 22 and everything has gone wrong. I have no family, no friends, so I can't borrow money from anyone, and I seriously don't know what else to do. This is what tipped me over the edge last month when I was forced to go into hospital to stay safe. I really don't know what to do. Shit. And it is my own fault, because I should have been able to manage better.
Suicide seems to be the only way out.. seriously, even if I could get more psychiatric support, or felt worthy enough to get it, it wouldn't take the financial shit away. So seriously.. what are the other options? My life felt desperate and unbearable as it was... and now? With all this? I just... I don't know what to do. One thing after another, and I can't. I can't deal with it. I don't know how. I'm such a failure.
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