I hate myself. I don't know what to do. I feel nothing but pain, emptiness, and blackness. I have to cut to make myself feel anything else. I have an abusive parent. Mentally, emotionally, and physically. Yet everything they say is true. I hate myself. And I want to kill myself. I feel dead already. So why not. It won't matter to anybody. People would get over it. I t would hurt nobody. But help many.