I just want to buy a gun and end it. The pain is not worth it anymore. My husband and daughter will be fine without me or maybe better. What is the fastest way to kill yourself? Will it hurt, will it be better, will everyone go on without you, I think I am no longer ready to keep living....life sucks and death seems to be the only way out. I have been thinking about it for a while now, I just feel so empty, and like my life is worthless. I can't even smile I just want to sleep and never wake up. I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't want to be helped I just want to end it. I give up there is no happiness for me every time I think it will get better it gets worse. Let me just end it and I want my family to move on.