I want to die...so bad. I even have a deadline. I have to die this weekend. This time it won't be like taking some 30 pills. Yeah I did that so many times and they don't work. Nobody knows about my plan. The truth is I just want relief. I wish somebody could help me. How do you tell someone that you want to die? How do you tell them without the fear that you will be locked up? How do you tell them and not be scared that they will desert you? God, I just have to die this weekend. If can't do it this weekend, I will fail again. It won't surprise me though. Once a failure, always a failure, right?