Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by Wastingecho, May 2, 2011.

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  1. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    On train head already pounding, feel ill

    Find out today if i still have a job

    Tried not to think about it all weekend but can't avoid it now and not sure what will happen

    Tried my best Dammit out of my hands now if I ever had a chance and my head is not right

    Don't know if I'm afraid more of getting fired or not

    Getting fired is actually easier - that's what life insurance is for and yes i'm covered

    If they don't fire me it means I have to keep being something I'm not, not doing what I'm best at, and I can't keep that up forever

    The stress of the last 6 weeks has taken it's toll - always exhausted, short-tempered, more isolated than ever, emotionally hair-triggered - had to avoid all music and family for the last week - torturing myself listening to les miserable now hoping for inspiration but all it's doing is make me cry

    I know I should be grateful to (still?) have a job but but it's been slowly killing me for years I can't find anything else, bills are high need the money butt I'm just going to fail anyway - sooner or later - I'm a loser it's inevitable - I feel it in my bones
  2. jxdama

    jxdama Staff Member Safety & Support

    i think you will get good news today.
  3. Terry

    Terry Antiquities Friend Staff Alumni

    Hope it all goes as well as it can :hug:
  4. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I think too you will not get fired hun you are just as important as the other workers there. I hope you are able to get the coping skills you need to keep fighting okay
  5. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    now in addition to whatever may or may not happen we have to start the next round of self-assessments

    how about this?

  6. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Only in your mind okay no other person thinks this only you
  7. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    doesn't make it any less true does it
  8. Terry

    Terry Antiquities Friend Staff Alumni

    Not to you it doesn't.
    Bit like people constantly telling me spiders won't hurt me, when I'm irrationally petrified of them.
    And that's the point, it's irrational!
    You are not a waste space, just someone stuck in a mind set that is slowly destroying you. :hug:
  9. jxdama

    jxdama Staff Member Safety & Support

    we love you here
  10. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

  11. xXWhateverItTakesXx

    xXWhateverItTakesXx Forum Buddy

    Just want to send you a hug and hope everything went ok.

    You are not pointless and you deserve very much to live :hug: xx
  12. jxdama

    jxdama Staff Member Safety & Support

    what happened?
  13. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    hey echo...I hope all went well at work...
    you have many friends here but none of us gonna do the 'rock' thing to you..
  14. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    well no one told me not to come back when i left but no one has told me i'm safe either - too chicken to ask

    still stressed - not going in to work today

    feel like a wreck
  15. WildCherry

    WildCherry ADMIN

    Just letting you know I'm here if you need anything. :hug:
  16. jxdama

    jxdama Staff Member Safety & Support

    did you stay home?
  17. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    hope staying home gave you some peace from the constant turmoil you're in Echo..
    I feel for you....I wish I could fix your pain..:hug:
  18. the_only_one

    the_only_one Well-Known Member

    echo. we all love you here.. you know that:)
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