February 29 is my deadline. during the last month i have done my best not to leave anything undone or unattempted. i have been working, studying and getting out of my bedroom, meeting with people and seeing my doc and therapist, with extreme efforts just to committ 100% to life. to give myself a last chance. and maybe this is why people close to me (my family and docs) think im doing better. actually im not. i just didnt want to leave with loose ends. i have done everything i could to try to find a reason to live but i havent found it. living is not worth it for me. im taking my meds and have talked about the deadline with both my docs but nothing has changed. i've done my best, all i could to keep myself alive, but now its time to give in. i dont know what else to do.