Dear Dad

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by Marshmallow, Apr 17, 2007.

  1. Marshmallow

    Marshmallow Staff Alumni

    Why can't you just fuck off out of my head!! it's been over 15 years!!!

    You don't deserve kids. You didn't even deserve mum! She married you and you treated her like shit! i can't believe i'm a apart of you! no wonder where i get my anger issues. Even your son has the same problem. The hate i feel for you is unbearable. Yet you still get into my head and fuck things up. You don't even deserve to be in my head not after what you did.

    Beat your wife while shes pregnant right? Trying to kill the baby. I fucking wished you'd done it, then i wouldn't be feeling like this would i?! Why couldn't you just of killed me then?!

    Why can't i just not EVER think about you! I don't get it! i can never forgive you for the way you was. Hell i don't even know if your alive or not. I always fucking wondered that and why the hell should i?? It's not like you deserved kids is it?!

    D is a better dad than you could EVER be. How does it feel to have another man raise your kids? how does it feel to have another man act as a father for longer than you ever did?


    What the hell is it with all these dreams?! :cry:

    Last night i dreamt a baby died in my arms over and over again because i picked it up. The i ended up beating the shit out of 3 girls. What kind of a dream is that? Dreaming a baby dying in your arms.

    Maybe thats why i been thinking of my dad today. :sad:

    :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry:
  2. Sa Palomera

    Sa Palomera Well-Known Member

    :hug: :hug: :hug: Vikki
  3. Spearmint

    Spearmint Well-Known Member

    :hug: Vikki.
  4. Marshmallow

    Marshmallow Staff Alumni

    You know what Mum, FUCK YOU!!

    Lol your gonna regret this. Tonight your soooooooooo gonna fucking regret that.

    And you know the good thing about it lol your the one thats gonna stop me being able to talk about it, it will lead to my death. lol i hope your glad of that.

    I tell you im having nightmares and i CAN'T sleep and you don't give a fucking shit!!

    I hope your proud of yourself. I really do.
  5. Marshmallow

    Marshmallow Staff Alumni

    Had another nightmare last night :sad:

    Been up since 3am cos i couldn't sleep. Wrote my mum a letter last night. Should work on that cos its not a very nice one.

    Have started writing again. Meh. This is gonna be the hardest one. :sad:

    It hurts every fucking day. Having to see and hear it. Right in my face. Well im done. It fucking hurts to much.