Dear Members of Forum, I have not been an active member of this forum for a long period of time, but I want to express something that I have been thinking in this message. I am going to attempt to make this message short, since my messages are usually great in length. I am also going to state that by creating this message and posting it on this forum, I am breaking a promise that I have made to Robin. The promise is that I was not going to access this forum until December of the year two thousand and twelve. Obviously, I have failed, and I hope he forgives me for breaking my promise to him. The reason that I have not been an active member of this forum for quite some time, is that, most of the time, I think that every member who is or were my friend would be in a more prosperous situation without my being in her or his life. I am not suicidal, but I have thoughts about dying, and sometimes, I have thoughts about another person or about more than one person killing me. I do not have any desire to perform suicide. I have an intent to live my life, even though, I do not want to live. I do not understand why I want to decease, yet, I am not suicidal. I wish that everyone who is a member of this forum would be in harmonious terms with one another. I do not enjoy when a member or when members engage in altercations with another member or with other members. I do not comprehend the insults, ridicules, and the rudeness that occurs on this forum. Furthermore, I wish many of the members would discontinue blaming the other members who are administrators and moderators for the problems that occur on this forum because many individuals had decided to become unruly. I have decided to access this forum once again; the previous time that I have accessed this forum was five months ago, and at this present time, I still discover threads and posts of members placing blame on the moderators and administrators for the forum going to an inferior condition or state. It is not the fault of the moderators and administrators. The blame should be placed on those people who arrive on this forum to become intentionally recalcitrant by disrupting the peaceful milieu of the forum, and purposely causing members who are actually endeavoring to be respectful, kind, sensitive, helpful, and compassionate to the members and follow the rules of the forum, to become upset, angry, more depressed or offended. Please, could we all just get along? With Kind Regards, Sincerely Yours, ... Big William.