:tongue: Does anyone here ever feel like they "know" they will one day kill themselves? Maybe things are not bad right now, but you've known most of your life that you'll eventually end your life. You've fantasized and even planned your suicide countless times. When we moved to a new location I sort of took note (to myself) of places in the countryside where I could possibly blow my brains out should the time come. At times when things are bad just the thought that you can stop the pain helps in some way with dealing with the pain. It's like an old friend that presents himself whenever you're in pain. Im curious about your thoughts.