I have been suicidal for so long now. I know how to do it and make it so no one will be able to save me in time. And if I change my mind at the last minute I won't be able to stop it. <edit mod total eclipse time line> I see my therapist to say goodbye without letting her know I'm gonna do it, and then I'm gonna go do it. I can;t wait< edit mod total eclipse time line> Finally, sweet release.